*The following post discusses self harm. If you are feeling unsafe please let someone know. If you are in immediate danger please go to your nearest Emergency Department.*
Over the last 13 years I have struggled on and off with thoughts of self harm of varying degrees. These thoughts have ranged from fleeting images to seemingly relentless onslaughts. For a lot of years I separated those thoughts from my body, choosing to see them as an entity I was too weak to resist.
Two weekends in a row now Devil Papa has said that he wants to spend some boy time with Devil Spawn. Two weekends in a row that has involved him having a 5 hour nap FFS
Stupid people are all up in my line of sight and apparently it’s still illegal to kill them FFS
We received close to 500mm in under 48 hours. It destroyed roads and bridges. Still people were stupid enough to drive through the water FFS
It has been ridiculously hot here this week. Looking at the weather forecast you would think that the temperatures aren’t too bad but we live in Rockhampton. The humidity fucks you over. I have sweat pouring off me at 9am in the morning FFS