There’s just over a week until Christmas, and I have so much to do. I gave myself the gift of calm, and I’m setting aside my fears. I haven’t felt the Christmas cheer too much this year but I am faking it until I make it. So I am making myself a little ta-da list right here, to remind myself that I am making progress.
On Friday I took Mr 5 for his annual Santa photo. He is understanding more and more each year about how this whole Santa thing worked. This year I didn’t want to be in the photo. I was sick of being in the photo. So with a lot of bribing, some chatting while in the line and a very awesome Santa we had a photo with Santa. I may have teared up when I saw him talking to Santa. I can count the amount of adults he talks to on one hand. It was progress and I was so proud of him.
I only have to buy a present for Paul and my mum and then I am done. I have even made it easy for Paul to get me a Christmas present and put what I wanted on Layby. Now all he needs to do is pay it off, take it to one of those charity wrapping places and I don’t need to poke and prod him to do it.
On Saturday Paul and I got stuck into the house. I can actually walk into Mr 5’s bedroom now and I know exactly what is in my fridge. Cleaning the fridge also means that I have realised I have a lot of frozen meals in there…so no need to do a big grocery shop this week.
I’ve already gotten half of the things Mr 5 needs for school next year. I have them all in a box so I can keep track of it all. It’s been so much easier buying it all bit by bit so that I’m not having to do a big outlay next year. I got his uniforms last week and he looks so grown up! I really don’t know what I am going to do without an off sider next year.
Yesterday I sat down and worked out food for Christmas Day (Mum if you are reading this I found some cinnamon bread sticks that sound delish!), well some of it. I’ve written myself a list of the food, with the ingredients listed underneath. I feel good to have it all set out in front of me. It’s easier than just a grocery list because then I know what I need the ingredients are for (there have been times when I figured I didn’t need something and it ended up being a crucial ingredient for a recipe).
I’ve also started a calendar. Time is just getting away from us at the moment and it’s helpful to have things laid out in date form. Paul and I were getting caught in the trap of thinking ‘Oh Christmas is a couple of weeks away’ even though it isn’t!
I must confess that yes I am a bit (ok a lot) of a control freak. I like things to be just so and I can tend to get a little emotional when things start to go haywire. In the past I have just not made plans or pretended not to care, thinking that it would help. It doesn’t. So this year I am embracing the control freak and using it in a positive way.
I know that things aren’t going to go 100% the way that I have planned in my head and I am OK with that. I have better calming mechanisms than previous years and I know that I *will* survive if things aren’t just so. This year I’m planning, but I’m embracing the calm.
What’s on your ta-da list this silly season?