*The following post may be triggering to those experiencing self harm urges. Please make sure you are in a safe head space before reading. If you or someone you know is feeling unsafe, please call a professional. Lifeline has a great counseling service that can be reached on 13 11 14. Alternatively head to your nearest Emergency Department.*
Tonight on Insight SBS the topic is ‘Why do people self harm?‘. I’ll be tuning in to hear the different stories. When I saw the topic on Twitter it got me thinking about the reasons I have self harmed, how people would be surprised at them.
I self harmed when I was happy
I self harmed when I was sad
I self harmed when I was angry
I self harmed when I was numb, feeling nothing
I self harmed when I thought about the stupid things I had done, I self harmed when I couldn’t think at all. I self harmed when things were out of control, I self harmed when things were going well.
I think about self harm when I shave my legs, when I chop things for dinner. I think about self harm when I see my scars, when I see another persons scars. I think about self harm when things are stressful, when things are going well. I think about self harm when I wake up, when I go to sleep.
Self harm is addictive. Self harm invades your thoughts. Self harm is with you for the rest of your life. It is the first thing you think about when things start to go awry.
Self harm is not a one size fits all. There is no ONE reason why someone, or anyone self harms. The reasons can change from day to day.
Linking up with Jess for IBOT