For a long time I believed that my mind and body were two separate beings. I believed that the mind was in control and that my body was weak. I believed that my body needed to be punished in order to remind it that it was so weak. I also believed that I was a third separate being who watched this tug of war as if from above. Man that sounds all so bizarre when I read it back. It doesn’t feel logical, but that is the trouble with mental illness, not much is really logical. One of the symptoms of Borderline Personality Disorder is an unstable sense of self and the beliefs of the separation of mind and body was most likely how this manifested it self for me. I still have an unstable sense of self, but it has manifested itself in different ways.
