Sweet Nothings

I must confess that when things go pear shaped for me I don’t really turn to food for comfort.  Much to the disbelief of a previous doctor that believed that all overweight people must be eating their feelings.

When I feel blah or meh I tend to not eat at all.  Especially if it’s just Mr 5 and I here.  I tend to get food for him, but find the whole process of getting food for myself too much to contemplate.  I stare aimlessly into the fridge and pantry.  If nothing jumps out at me..aka is ready made then I don’t really bother.

However when I do eat I like to enjoy the experience.  I think about how the food feels, tastes and how it makes me feel.  I’m not sure if it’s something I have started doing more since starting mindfulness and DBT but it’s interesting to see the way that food feels as I eat it.

I seem to have developed a bit of a lactose intolerance in the last couple of years.  This means that I have to be careful when I eat my beloved chocolate.  In that I mean I have to be careful that I am near a toilet when I do eat it.  This makes me really sad but it does mean that I have had to broaden my horizons when it comes to satisfying those cravings.

The most popular food on my list of craving busters are Doritos.  I love the crunch and the cheesy tang on my tongue.  I love letting the chip sit on my tongue so that the flavour dissolves on my tongue before crunching it into a million pieces.  I can eat them with sour cream, corn relish or on their own.  If I am feeling really adventurous then I have them as nachos.  Mr 5 loves that we have chips for dinner!

I must confess that while I do enjoy making food an experience, it’s not often that way.  I usually eat on the run, while doing something else.  I very rarely sit down and enjoy the food I am eating unless we are out for dinner.  I can’t sit and just enjoy the food, I need to be keeping busy.  I can’t sit still.

Food and I have a funny relationship.  We aren’t really the best of friends.  We argue and I feel guilty.  Food and I haven’t been friends for a long time.  Food hasn’t been much more than a button to push for my guilt,  I do want to be friends with food, but maybe the feelings run too deep.

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6 thoughts on “Sweet Nothings

  1. Lydia C. Lee

    I’m on a big chicken twisties kick at the moment – not emotional eating, just greed, cos they’re so salty and tasty! I do think it’s interesting that humans have intellectualised food and eating so much as they evolved…because initially, it was just what you did to survive….now it’s a whole range of things…

  2. Ness

    I’m a big emotional eater. I eat for every reason you shouldn’t: boredom, depression, greed, just because it’s there. The only way I can avoid temptation is to never have in front of me at all. That sucks that you’re intolerant to chocolate! I never used to be a big chips/Doritos fan, but now I find if I have them in the house for the kids I do seem to nibble on them. I need to realise that just because I have three boys who never stop eating it doesn’t mean I can join in. Sigh.

  3. Kirsty @ My Home Truths

    I’m a sucker for corn chips too – they are so good! I would go Doritos over chocolate any day. Having said that I am indulging in a little Cadburys Dairy Milk tonight as I write – definitely a bit of comfort food as my sinuses are paining me right now…

  4. Anne@Grit and Giggles

    Yum! Doritoes! I don’t really eat chips and such but I will sometimes tuck into a packet of those rice cracker things. I think I need to keep them in reach rather than chocolate. I got sick one time and afterwards for months I couldn’t really eat dairy, choc included and even though I hated it, it broke my chocoholic cycle for a while. I can imagine how hard it would be really wanting to eat it but knowing it will not go down well. I am envying your tacos. Mr Sparky is a meat and veg guy and I have found myself just cooking meat and veg all the time. Makes me not want to cook.


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