We were watching Ice Age: The Meltdown for the 500th time this week and something Sid said to Diego really struck a cord with me. I had an ‘aha’ moment.
Did you know that 10% of Australians will be affected by an anxiety disorder at some point during their life. An anxiety disorder is a little more than just being scared of something. Anxiety can be crippling for a sufferer.
According to Anxiety Australia physical symptoms of an Anxiety Disorder can include:
Tachycardia, rapid heartbeat
Numbness or tingling in arms, hands or legs
Butterflies in the stomach
It wasn’t until I wrote this post recently that I even realised that anxiety had become an issue for me. I know that must sound ridiculous but it’s true. My response to anxiety is to get angry, and so I wasn’t recognising a lot of the symptoms for what they were.
I can’t pinpoint my fear to one specific thing, it is more of a feeling than anything else. It’s the feeling that everyone in the world is staring at you and just waiting for you to fuck it all up. It’s the fear of judgement, of scrutiny. I avoid situations where there is the potential for it. Turning into a hermit, exacerbating the other symptoms that I am dealing with.
I’m exhausted from the fear. I’m exhausted from putting the mask up every day. I’m exhausted from having to deal with the bubbling cauldron of anger that my body has become. I just want to hide away.
Are you becoming prey to your fear?
Beyond Blue has some great resources and information on helplines to help you conquer the fear.
So you can be just like Diego