I’ve been having a bit of a ‘where do I fit in’ crisis lately. The world seems to be passing me by while I am here in my rut, watching it all pass. I’m living just below the surface, not happy, not sad, just a seemingly never ending state of listlessness. I need to scrape back the noise, get back to basics and realise who I am.
I am…more than my mental illness. I have Depression and Borderline, they do not define me as a person.
I am…a mother who is doing her best. I might not live up to the text book version of what I *should* be doing, but my child is happy and healthy and that is all that matters.
I am…more than my physical appearance. How I present myself to the world does not dictate who I am or how I should act. I am free to be myself, regardless of my appearance.
I am…a good friend. Maybe I don’t catch up as often as I should, or keep in contact as much as I should but I care deeply for the people that I love. I may be awkward in my communication but please know that you are on my mind often.
I am…doing ok, all things considered. It’s so easy for me to feel like the world is falling down around me, but I am 20 steps ahead of where I was 6 years ago.
I am…my own advocate. One of the upsides of having less than stellar psychiatric treatment at times is that I have learned to be my own advocate. I have learned that no one else is going to speak up for me, that only I know what is best for my own health. I know that there are professionals out there who do care, who do see me as more than a diagnosis.
I am…doing good things for the reduction of stigma. I enjoy receiving messages from you, my readers. I love that you feel comfortable enough to share your experiences in the space here. I hope that I can continue to educate and create a community of mutual sharing.
I am…a kick arse person. I may not be everyone’s flavour and that is ok because that’s part of life. The fun part about life is finding our tribe, the people who know all about our quirks and accept them warts and all.
What are the parts that make you, you?
Linking up with Jess for IBOT