I must confess that NaNoWriMo made me hate writing.
I signed up for the 50,000 words in a month challenge back in August. I was excited and filled with anticipation. I practiced writing short stories, working on my fiction story telling abilities. I worried that after writing this blog for so long, that I wouldn’t even know how to start with a fiction story. I had decided that I wanted to write a series of short stories, not really knowing what they would be about or what I was going to do with them.
I had a look around the forums and the Facebook groups but they made me feel ridiculously overwhelmed. I just wanted to write. I didn’t have a plan, maybe that was my downfall.
By the 14th day I was 5 days ahead. We were going away and I wanted to have some time up my sleeve. On the outside I was happy, I was making good time and I was going to meet the goal that was set. On the inside my thoughts were mush. I felt like I was in a cloud.
I enjoy blogging because it allows me to write about different things. I fell out of love with my story because I felt stuck. I had started writing in a genre that I am not overly familiar with, both as a reader and a writer. I tried to rectify this by introducing a second genre. I wrote myself into a corner, I had no idea where to go or if I even wanted to keep going.
I gave up. It was the best thing I could have done. It sounds strange but it’s true. I gave myself a breather of a few days and then sat back down to write a blog post. The words flowed, I felt less clouded about my writing. I was writing for myself again, not for a target. I loved writing again.
Will I sign up for NaNoWriMo again? Maybe, but next time I will go in with a much more clear head about it all. It’s a pretty intense challenge so I think I will be going in with a plan if I do choose to do it again.
Do you work better with a clear plan in place or are you more of a fly by the seat of your pants kind of person?
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