Everyone knows that alcohol loosens your lips…but should it loosen your hips. I call my vodka my ‘liquid courage’, it helps me say the things that I am just too damn afraid to say.
Some people may say I am obnoxious…that is only if you find yourself at the end of my accusing eye. I take everything in, ruminate on it, save it up for a rainy day. So you know if I have a ‘go’ at you about something, I have been thinking about you, for a long time.
Alcohol is no excuse. I have done some stupid stuff while drunk, stuff that I am not proud of. It doesn’t change the fact that, I CHOSE TO DRINK. Some people seem to struggle with this. They are happy to lay blame on a liquid.
It seems to have become socially acceptable in our society to act like a complete douchehog every time there is even a drop of alcohol in our system. This needs to stop. You may feel like I am preaching from some ‘high’ place. I am not. I am just someone who is struggling to come to terms with the decisions they have made. People that I have decided to allow into my life. People that I have since cut off.
Where is your line? I used to think that mine was pretty clear. Turns out it is not. I let people act in ways that I wouldn’t normally accept. I was lonely and didn’t want to lose friendships. It came to the point where I had to choose between the safety of my son and my friends. Despite my struggles, my son will win every time.
Alcohol is no excuse. Ever. If you don’t want to be accused of shitty behaviour, then don’t act shitty. I have been trying to live up to my ‘resolutions’. I have since added another. It’s about not just sitting around and bitching, its about doing what needs to be done. So far I have accomplished that. I feel much more complete from doing something rather than sitting back and letting the evil prosper.