This week is all about saying sorry…for anything and everything.
I’m sorry that I was in to the too hard basket. I’m sorry that you’re easy fix didn’t work. I’m sorry that I push anyone away who gets too close. I’m sorry that I still think about hurting myself even though you think I shouldn’t.
I’m sorry that sitting on the couch staring into space is easier. I am sorry that I yell more than I talk. I’m sorry that you just want a hug and I push you away. I’m sorry that the DVD player plays with you more than I do. I’m sorry that I don’t have the energy to do anything about it.
I’m sorry I was so difficult. I’m sorry that I kicked, screamed and scratched just to not being your presence. I’m sorry that I caused you so much pain. I’m sorry I wasn’t perfect. I’m sorry I gave up to easy. I’m sorry I didn’t try harder.
I’m sorry I screwed up..that I continued to screw up even when I knew the right way. I’m sorry that I am more scared to live than I am to die.
Wow Teegs. This is a really powerful post. I’ve just found your blog via Eden. You’re really brave to face up to your “sorrys”. I am not that brave. I am still caught up in my own crazy world of sorrow to sit down and work out really and truly what I am sorry for…if that makes sense.
Thanks for your comment Kate. I hope that you see a way out of the crazy world of sorrow soon. Honestly the only reason I knew these so clear was because my partner and I talked about it during a drunken conversation on Friday night…