The good old ‘best of’ albums. Every year for Christmas I would get a variety of these babies with the hits from the previous years. There was Pepsi Chart Hits, Now, So Fresh and 100% hits, all with the hottest hits from the year. I still have all of them and it’s interesting seeing what different genres were popular each year.
Aqua was another album that got the hell played out of it. I knew (and ahem know) the lyrics to all of the songs on this album and I was sad when it came to an untimely end..an end that we do not talk about, because the person who ended it is an arsehole. In case you’ve never heard these guys..I give you Barbie Girl.
My Mum got this for me when her and Dad went on a trip and I had to stay home. I hated the CD for years. Didn’t like the music, hell I was only in primary school so anything I couldn’t dance to was uncool. Then I turned into a moody teenager and it became a regular in the CD wallet I carried with my Discman.
I felt like such a badass when I got my Mum to buy this for me. Now there’s an oxymoron statement if I’ve ever seen one. You see I was only 14 at the time and so needed an adult to buy the CD for me. So badass.
Welcome to another meeting of the minds that is The Lounge! This week we are talking about Guilty Pleasures..so fess up what makes you feel so good it’s bad!?
Guilty pleasures..I’ve got a few. In the name of full disclosure I’m going to give you my top 10 guilty pleasures. Things that make me feel giddy with excitement but oh so naughty and sometimes a little stupid!
I actually kind of like reading Cosmo. I don’t read it as much anymore because I can’t justify dropping so much dosh on a magazine but I did have a subscription to it at one stage when it was half price.
I watch the cartoon channels even when Mr 4 isn’t here and I may even tell him to shush when I get particularly involved in an episode of Dance Academy.
I love laying in bed on a weekend morning and just listening to Paul and Mr 4 play. It makes me feel bad for being awake and not getting up but the conversations they have are just too adorable to interrupt sometimes.
Neighbours is one of my favourite shows and I do get a little (ok a lot) teary when bad things happen.
I still use baby shampoo on Mr 4′s hair because I love the smell. Seriously, it’s gorgeous.
I know Coca Cola is bad for me. I have read all of the articles about what it can do to a stomach and it’s alternate uses. However nothing beats that refreshing first sip of bubbly goodness.
I recently got myself a few pairs of Bridget Jones style undies. Where have these bad boys been all my life? Seriously I did not know that it was possible for undies to be so damn comfortable. Sure they look hideous, and it kind of feels like my undies are under my armpits but the comfort factor outweighs with these bad boys.
When I was in highschool I used to devour books easily. Until recently, I had lost that motivation. A few weeks ago I laid in bed most of the day wrapped in a blanket reading a book. It was glorious and I wish I had time to do it more often.
Paul and I are one of those gross couples who order food that each of us wants to try so we can share. I love it.
Paul has a cable knit jumper, I call it his Poppy jumper because of the cable knit. I have kind of stolen it because it’s the comfiest jumper. It even has thumb holes in so I can put the sleeves over my hands. Now if only we could have a decent winter this year so I can enjoy it!
*I received Pepsi products for the purpose of this review. All opinions are my own*
I love going to the beach. I love that we are only 40km away from the beach. Even though I don’t drive, it is only a $3 bus ride away. The beach makes me happy, it makes me feel centred and peaceful.
Paul and I try to regularly take Mr 4 to the beach. It’s a cheap way to spend the day and it has the added bonus of tiring the sleep dodger out! I love watching Mr 4 run through the waves and laughing when one crashes over him.
Sometimes we get fish and chips, spread out the paper on the ground and enjoy lunch while we watch the water. Our favourite fish and chip shop shut down last year and so we haven’t done that in a while which is a shame. We usually get Maccas on the way home, but it’s just not the same.
We’ve taken our own food in eskys before but it was always a pain trying to lug it down onto the beach. Especially if we are going fishing too, an esky for the bait and an esky for the food meant multiple trips to the car and it often looked like we were moving to the beach for a week not just the day! The awesome people from Pepsi sent me a picnic pack including a gorgeous picnic basket and blanket that solved the dramas perfectly.
Not only did we get the gorgeous picnic basket and blanket but we also got cans of the new Pepsi Next to try out. Pepsi Next is boasting that they are the next generation of cola, being the first of it’s kind in Australia to use Stevia as a natural sweetener. Pepsi Next has 30% less sugar but boasts that it still has the great taste of a full sugar cola.
I have to admit that I’m not a fan of Pepsi. So I was a little wary of how Pepsi Next was going to taste and if I would like it. Mr 4 was itching to try out the new ‘beer’ and had been pestering me for one since the package arrived on our doorsteps!
I was actually pleasantly surprised about the taste of Pepsi Next. I was a little wary of the low sugar as I have found most low sugar/no sugar drinks have a bit of a nasty after taste. I was glad to find that Pepsi Next didn’t. It had a nice crisp, refreshing taste that I thought was completely different to anything I have tried before. Mr 4 loved it and Paul was surprised at the nice taste as well.
To sweeten the deal I also have 8 cans of Pepsi Next to giveaway to one lucky reader!
All you have to do to enter is answer this simple question:
“What is your favourite picnic food”
The winner will be judged on creativity so make it as yummy as possible! Entries close next Tuesday the 11th of March so get your answers in quick!
Terms and Conditions.
The competition begins on Tuesday the 4th day of March 2014 and closes at midnight on the 11th day of February 2014.
All decisions made are final.
The winner has 48 hours after being contacted by email to answer, or the prize will be redrawn.
The competition is open to Australian Residents only.
Entrants must answer the question ‘What is your favourite picnic food’ in order to be eligible to win the prize.
Each entrant is only eligible to win one (1) Pepsi Next 8 pack.
This week Kirsty is asking us what we would outsource if we could. I would love to outsource all of the usual stuff, housework, cooking, housework, the bedtime routine, housework. Have I mention I don’t like housework?
Jokes aside though, if I could outsource anything it would be a close tie between my decision making and just having someone to take my brain for a few hours. Although I guess those two could intertwine.
Deep down I don’t think I could give up my decision making completely. I am a bit of a control freak and I don’t think I could handle having absolutely no say in the way that my life goes. I already feel a little helpless with most it now, I don’t think I could give up that last little bit of control.
However if there was a way that I could just take my brain out, put it in a bowl next to my bed for the night and go to sleep then I would be first to sign up for it! I would even settle for something like the bowl in Harry Potter where Dumbledore draws his memories out of his head with his wand. It would also be super helpful for therapy sessions to just hand the bowl over and have all of your painful, life changing memories in one place.
I have been struggling to get to sleep lately, this is nothing new for me though. I lay in bed thinking about all of the stupid things I have said and done that day, everyday. It would be amazing the mortifying things I can remember..if it wasn’t all so hurtful.
I would love to be able to just switch it all off for a few hours. I hate the constant chatter inside my head. Some days it feels like I can’t do anything without the thoughts trailing off to something unpleasant. I feel tortured by my mind. I put the pillow over my head, squeeze my eyes shut tighter, willing the thoughts away. The only thing this does is make them more prevalent. Have you noticed the more you try not to think or feel something, the more you struggle with it?
I want to escape but I know that that won’t help in the long run. I know that the same things will happen over and over again unless I work through them. I know that the ostrich approach of sticking my head in the sand won’t make one iota of difference. Running away will only give me short term gain with long term pain. I will always be looking over my shoulder, waiting for it all to catch up with me again.
So maybe I will just stick to outsourcing the practical stuff..now to just win the lotto so I can afford that house cleaner and cook!
*The following post contains material that may be triggering. Please make sure you are feeling safe before continuing to read. If you or someone you know is struggling then please seek professional help through your GP or give the people at Life Line a call on 13 11 14*
Tomorrow, the 1st of March 2014 is International Self Harm Awareness Day. Self harm and it’s effects is something that is very close to my heart. I have written about different aspects of self harm including myths, first aid, tips helping loved ones and documentaries.
I grew up in a small country town. I was the only person I knew who self harmed. I often turned to the online world for support from people who understood the urges, the desires and the deep seeded guilt surrounding acts of self harm. The online world has exploded since I was a teen, there is Facebook groups and forums for people who want support. I still turn to these groups and social media now for support. Sometimes it is easier to tell people you can’t see that you are struggling. There isn’t as much guilt for the effect the words ‘I want to self harm’ has on someone on the other side of the screen when you can’t see them.
It took me years to understand what was going on when I began to feel the urge to self harm. I would often shrug my shoulders when asked what I was feeling that lead to the thoughts. In simple terms, self harming behaviour is a coping mechanism. It is not a particularly healthy one, and so therapy is encouraged to help replace the self harming behaviour with more positive behaviours.
My psychologist has helped me to understand that self harm is often related to feeling overwhelmed by emotions. We all have emotions that we struggle with, people who engage in self harming behaviours find these emotions unbearable. This unbearable emotion differs from person to person. For me, I can’t bare to feel sadness and anger. Feeling these emotions feels like a never ending tunnel. Not only did I believe there was no light at the end of the tunnel but that the end of the tunnel didn’t exist at all. I believed that the only way to break the cycle was to self harm.
It is my belief that there is no one point that draws a person to self harm, there is no cookie cutter diagnosis as to what the cause is. For me personally it was often used to dull my emotions, to shift the focus from the emotional to the physical. It was much easier to deal with a physical pain than it was to deal with the turmoil that I felt inside. I would go into a trance like state, taking care of my physical needs, the emotions numbed for now. The trouble with self harm, like any addiction is that to achieve the same feeling time after time, the actions need to be worse than the time before, more destructive.
In the last five years, I have only self harmed once. I attribute a lot of that time to my gorgeous, full of life almost 5 year old. I was on a path of destruction before I found out I was pregnant with him. He is the reason I haven’t completely given up on myself. He is the reason that I put one foot in front of the other. Things may not be going along as well as I would like..but they could be so much worse.
Self harm thoughts are still something that I deal with on a daily basis. I am slowly putting things into my toolbox to help deal with the feelings that can lead to self harming behaviour. I continue to attend therapy, removing toxic influences from my life and building on the mechanisms that I already have. I hope that by continuing to share my story that I can help at least one person feel less alone. The more we talk about the hard stuff, hopefully the easier it will be for those suffering to reach out.
To help spread the word far and wide I am opening my blog for people to link up their stories of self harm. Self harm comes in many different forms, there is no one fits all. Self harm affects more people than we realise. It’s time to shine a light on this.